The Joy of Grace

One month and the second time around Jul 10

Today Aubrey is one month old.  I don't really know if the fact that it has flown by is good or bad, especially compared to our first month with Savannah.  Our first month with Savannah was really tough.  Although our first month with Aubrey has not been as tough, we've definitely had our moments.

This second time around, in so many ways like with Savannah,  I still...

• don't always know the reason behind Aurbrey's crying.  Most of the times it is because she's tired and needs a little help getting to sleep, but that leads me to the next point...
  
• can't get her to sleep every time as easily as the time before.  In fact, on Tuesday night after an off again/on again fussy time from around 6-9, Aaron had to take her on a car-ride to calm her down.  She calmed down and went to sleep only to wake up again about ten mintues after she got home.
• can't figure out why sometimes I can lay her down and she'll just drift off to sleep so easily and other times she will not, particularily during that fussy time as stated earlier (or at least that has been a this week thing) .
• think an early bed-time is best for our baby and the couple times I've actually been brave enought to let her do this~yes, I do mean around 6:30/7ish~ is when she best falls asleep for the night.
• could be totally wrong on all these preliminary sleep thoughts on Aburey.
• am trying to probably figure things out just so I can feel better about the whole newborn stage.  Aaron reminds me quite frequently that I can not nor will I figure things out perfectly.
• think way too much about sleep and baby and that is because I still love sleep.
  
• am in awe of this little creation that the Lord has given us to take care of.
• look forward to nights of full sleep for both mommy and baby (just can't get sleep out of this entry, can I?)
• need to tell myself to not wish away these precious newborn moments, even if it does mean not getting a full night's sleep.
  
• have to stop and remind myself that she is just one month old and she's still trying to learn how to function to life outside the coziness of the womb.
• thrive on routine and hope eventually Aubrey will get hers down and will thrive on it too.
• am very tired...more tired this time around, in fact, because I have a 15 month old to take care of too.
• have had my moments of "freaking out".  Although, so far, I've handled them a bit more graciously and calmly this time around.
• think it's a highly productive day if I've showered and gotten dress, and I've really conquered the world if I get to put on make-up.
• have moments when I really enjoy the newborn stage and other moments when I really have a hard time with it.
• have to take a deep breath during those hard moments and remind myself that this too shall pass and when it does, I'll actually miss it.
• believe that motherhood is a calling and believe that I really have been called to be a mom although I'm not all the time sure of myself in that calling.
  
• need to chill out and just let Aubrey be Aubrey. She's precious.  She's a gift.  And I love her more deeply than I could ever express.

Savannah at one month...

Aubrey at one month...